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Ultimamente vivo numa carência, é uma carência
ingênua de carinho, afeto, palavras bonitas, olhares. É carência de
alguém, de um colo ou de um abraço, de um ombro para um choro e um
desabafo.
N. Martins

January 2012

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19 January 2012 @ 08:12 pm

why

This is Why

Ever since I remember, I've held it in, held it all. Somehow I felt comfortable, behind my wall, behind it all. This is why I don't cry, this is why I don't cry. Tears, they only compromise, there's no need to visualize. This is why I don't cry, this is why I don't cry. Tears, they only minimize, everything I keep inside. I bet that you think I'm lonely. You may be right. I just might. And if you want me to break down, it'd be a sight, but not tonight. This is why I don't cry, this is why I don't cry. Tears, they only compromise, there's no need to visualize. This is why I don't cry, this is why I don't cry. Tears, they only minimize, everything I keep inside.

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09 October 2011 @ 06:51 pm

"E quanto a mim, te quero, sim

Vem dizer que você não sabe.

E quanto a mim, não é o fim

Nem há razão pra que um dia acabe."

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01 October 2011 @ 11:22 pm

still here, breathing.
still here, waiting for my time to come.
still here, crying.
still here, smiling.
still here, thinking, blinking, tiping.
still here, and i almost forgot.
still here and i still felling nothing.
still here, still nothing.
nothing.
nothing.
nothing.
that's what i feel inside.
for me.
for you.
for us.

still here waiting for my time to come.

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16 June 2011 @ 06:57 pm

Eu não entendo o que você tem. É ridiculo o que eu sinto quando eu falo com você.
Eu to longe eu to distante e eu vou te esquecendo. Mas ai você vem, com um jeito que só você tem, me enrosco nas suas palavras e amém. Não sei o que você tem mas sei que têm. Quero te ver mas tenho medo. Tenho medo de não te querer mais e não poder voltar atras. Tenho medo. Medo do que você tem.

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28 May 2011 @ 12:33 pm

e então o que eu faço da minha vida?
as vezes eu apenas quero que tudo isso acabe.

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27 May 2011 @ 07:40 pm

De novo o mesmo sentimento de perda.
Nesses momentos me pergunto sem parar "por que?" e mesmo assim ninguem tem a resposta.
Espero que você esteja bem meu amor.
Em corpo ou espirito, mas bem.
Eu espero que esse tempo no nosso lar tenha feito você feliz.
Eu te amo. Muito.

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24 May 2011 @ 12:17 am

Veja bem, sentimentos fortes acabam comigo. Me pergunto se tudo o que vejo em você é ilusão, exagero ou amor mesmo, porque você é quase iluminado aos meus olhos e teu sorriso me faz feliz. E foi tão rapido que nem percebi que você está nos meus pensamentos constantemente, quase totalmente. Sim, eu sempre erro, mas espero poder acertar com você.

Nesse momento eu queria poder pensar em você em paz, poder lembrar dos teus movimentos, do teu toque e de cada palavra que você disse. Mas uma dor me perturba agora e não consigo ser totalmente feliz. Mas eu sei que tudo passa e essa dor vai passar e eu então vou me entregar como sempre faço.. mas dessa vez a historia é diferente. Eu sei que é, porque você é diferente de todos que vieram e se foram.

I don't know but
I think I may be
Fallin' for you

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24 May 2011 @ 12:06 am

If that's what it was to you,
then that's what it was to me.

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20 May 2011 @ 08:14 pm

Seems I lost my way last night
But I was reborned by daylight.
Seems I get another chance
Another chance to dance away
Now you bring your loving back
But don't you know your love is black?
And now your here pooring in the dark

'Cause you can't see inside my heart

Seems you lost your way last night
You were back here by daylight
And now your words are black and cold
And your lies are tired and old
Nature is calming me
'Cause your love was harming me
And now I shed that colder harm
I wasn't safe there in your arms

It's true I loved you once
It's true you were once mine

Look out, your love is black
Look out, your love is black
Look out, your love is black

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24 April 2011 @ 01:45 pm

Check it out
Going out
On the late night
Looking tight
Feeling nice
It's a cock fight
I can tell
I just know
That it's going down
Tonight
At the door we don't wait cause we know them
At the bar six shots just beginning
That's when dick head put his hands on me
But you see

I'm not here for your entertainment
You don't really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It's just you and your hand tonight

Midnight
I'm drunk
I don't give a fuck
Wanna dance
By myself
Guess you're outta luck
Don't touch
Back up
I'm not the one
Buh bye
Listen up it's just not happening
You can say what you want to your boy friends
Just let me have my fun tonight

In the corner with your boys you bet up five bucks
To get at the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck
We didn't get all dressed up just for you to see
So quit spilling your drinks on me yeah

You know who you are
High fivin, talking shit, but you're going home alone aren´t´cha?

Cause I'm not here for your entertainment
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it's over
Before it began.

It's just you and your hand tonight.

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11 April 2011 @ 08:50 pm

I want someone to hold.
Someone to kiss.
Someone to love.
Love me, please.

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11 April 2011 @ 01:03 pm

We'll say our goodbyes
you know it's better that way
We won't break, we won't die
It's just a moment of change.

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11 April 2011 @ 01:02 pm

n

How many times can we make the same mistake?

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03 April 2011 @ 11:40 pm

how could you be so heartless?

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03 April 2011 @ 11:39 pm

to look and see nothing..
but I keep looking forward.

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23 March 2011 @ 06:50 pm

Someday we'll know why I wasn't meant for you.

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16 March 2011 @ 11:27 am

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream.

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24 February 2011 @ 06:50 pm

and then i''l let all those memories die.
fucking memories.

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08 February 2011 @ 09:08 pm

He and I had something beautiful but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last .
I loved him so but I let him go 'cause I knew he'd never love me back.

I'm still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious
Near to you, I am healing but it's taking so long ..

'Cause though he's gone It's hard to move on ;

~~Yet, I'm better near to you.~~

I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard to get back to who I used to be.

He's disappearing
Fading suddelly

It's hard to move on .

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08 February 2011 @ 09:01 pm

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind

The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never wanna see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you.. can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should I known you'd bring me heartache?
Almost lovers always do.

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you're just fine

Did I make it that easy for you
To walk right in and out of my life?

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02 February 2011 @ 12:54 am

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking around
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vain
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding

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01 February 2011 @ 08:11 pm

E o que passou, passou
E o que marcou, ficou
Se diferente eu fosse será que eu teria sido amado?
Por você, por você.

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31 January 2011 @ 06:06 pm

I just got to know

"Ela precisava tanto chorar e quando o fez, se assustou."

something happened for the first time, deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you're all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

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31 January 2011 @ 06:02 pm

"Apesar de tudo o que foi dito naquele dia.
Pessoas que somem não são confiáveis."

the feeling: crushed

crushed

crushed

the sound: David Archuleta - Crush

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17 January 2011 @ 06:42 pm

I need something I can keep from the empty space in between.
See, I ain't wasting no more time.
you are not good to me.

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16 January 2011 @ 12:57 pm

you're 21
I see your eyes ; you're barely sober.
I hear your voice ; you're calling out from me to you.
I pour a drink ; you're moving quick, you're moving forward.

then you said no, I'm never gonna be inside of you.
and I said no, I'm never gonna see inside of you.

because I know I'm gonna fall and you'll be waiting for it all
because i know i know i know
I cant get inside of you
inside of you

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15 January 2011 @ 11:23 pm

Well i'm thinking of the worst things that i could say to you
But a promise doesn't mean a thing anymore
And this never will be right with me
But i'm tongue tied and terrified of what i'll say
But i never told you everything
I'm losing hope and fading dreams
And every single memory along the way.

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31 December 2010 @ 07:30 pm

It's about he nights we spent
locked up inside your room
it's about the morning breaking
always just a bit too soon

every time you walk in the room
can't help myself
i wanna be with you

I'm alive
and I keep my cool one more time
and you just keep on walking by

I take a day to tell myself
I'm gonna end up fine
it's all part of some master plan
we're all a little lost inside
even if i run right now
swore you off
I'd still come back somehow
and here I am now
I take a day to soak you in
for a while
I'm hanging on the best I can
let go
cause maybeif I felt it once
Then I could somehow feel it again

http://letras.ms/4Bv1

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30 December 2010 @ 06:45 pm

I hear the room fill with laughter
And then forget everything after.
You stand there memorizing
I'm here, barely breathing
There's something I should have said
But I laughed along instead.

I hear your heart beating faster
But I'm unclear on what you're after.
You give me no reason why
I shouldn't say goodbye
I can't think what I could have said
So I'll break your heart instead. *

the sound: Finally Found - Late Night Alumni

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30 December 2010 @ 06:39 pm

Be still sad heart.

Oh be still and cease repining.

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